InsaneJournal

I am Editor in Chief of Rending the Veil occult magazine and web portal (in training). I am also an Esoteric Nonfiction Editor for Immanion Press, specifically the Megalithica Books imprint. I edited Kink Magic by Taylor Ellwood and Lupa, and The Heretic's Guide to Thelema by Gerald del Campo.

Rending the Veil is always seeking new contributors on virtually any occult subject, for both occasional articles and regular columns. We need assistant web programmers, demographics analysts, content editors, html/css editors, publicists, and more. If you're interested in volunteering or contributing content, write to sheta@rendingtheveil.com. When the day eventually arrives that we can actually pay our staff, our most loyal members with the highest seniority will be first in line. Need references? Talk to Gerald del Campo, Taylor Ellwood, Lupa, Patrick Dunn, and any number of other involved parties.

What do you want to bet no one's still reading? If you made it this far, here's the story:

I'm known as a spearhead in the occult niche subculture of "spirit companions," a term I coined in 1999. Sometimes, this is rewarding. Sometimes it sucks.

My Yahoo icon above does not always accurately reflect whether I'm online. I've often got my preferences set to hide my online status. I'm usually set to some sort of "Away" if not invisible, and this is because I'm usually busy as hell or otherwise deflecting random taps. I'm a deep person, and I don't do long-term superficial well, so I'm generally not interested in small talk except as an ice-breaker. So don't tap me just to tell me about your cute pets or what you did at the grocery store this morning. All that said, I'm easier to talk to than you might expect.

I'm currently in psychotherapy, which is interestingly coinciding with a series of lessons introduced by Meridjet — lessons that have spanned the past five years and which are just now finally making sense to me. It's not always easy, but it's definitely interesting. Due to these realizations and new understandings (which increase almost daily), I'm re-evaluating the way I look at relationships and the way I behave with other people.

In the beginning, Meridjet was my lover and my friend. After we were together 2 years he departed (I thought permanently) and underwent a great deal of trial and training to both process his life (we Thelemites call this series of trials in particular "Crossing the Abyss") and to learn how to use his strengths for our mutual growth. After his return in 1999, he became a sort of pumped-up guide for me, and over time he has grown to be guide to many others... via internet instant messaging. :) He has done everything from giving advice to saving lives, and he works his ass off. If you come to know us, don't be surprised if he shows up some afternoon to check you out.